Here I am, making another 3 am post. I have had so much on my mind lately and the moment I thought I was getting to a normal "adult" sleeping schedule, BAM! I'm blasted with college brain again and can't fall asleep until it's the time crazy business men and women are waking up!
Sometimes I'm thinking of bubbles, candles, pew flowers, and programs, but today that is just not the case. I've taken a break from wedding world (17 days and counting!) and I'm in job world now. My sweet fiance, Travis, spent an interview extravaganza weekend at a church and let me say I am MORE than ecstatic at the sheer possibility of our moving there. The weekend apparently went beautifully and the church will be going through the motions and if everything goes well, we will be headed there for a vote and an official "in view of a call" weekend next month. Now, I don't know if anyone else is keeping up with the days here, but that means that I will be living with my husband for a couple weeks before we actually have somewhere to live. For those of you who don't know what that means, let me explain further:
Mama and Daddy Henderson will be having some house guests.
At first I was overwhelmed by the idea of moving a queen size bed for a husband and wife into the room where two of my brothers slept in high school. Just didn't have the glitz and glam of the newlywed life that I was expecting! We're supposed to have a cute apartment that I can decorate and put a ridiculous amount of wedding pictures in because we don't have any other pictures yet!!! But guess what? Things don't always go as I plan them. I just don't know what my future holds. But as the sweet song says, "I know Who holds the future" and "this child can face uncertain days because He lives." So beautiful. So true.
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet our heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" - Matthew 6:25-27 NIV
So I've decided that when Jesus said all of that, He meant it. I am amazed at the birds and their ability to sing in any circumstance. It doesn't matter if the sky is grey or bright blue, they just keep singing. My favorite song lyric is this: "Help me get back to the reason I sing for You." I get so distracted sometimes by whatever is affecting me each day that I forget that God saved me and gave me a reason to sing. And that Him doing that is more than enough.
My conclusion is this: I'm owning everything that comes my way. Living with my parents as a newlywed? We're going to have a cooking schedule so that I can still cook meals for my new husband each week. Not knowing where the Lord will have us receive income? We're taking an adventure and taking advantage of the fact that for the first weeks of marriage we will have no commitment to a daily office. So what are you going to do to give your daily "would-be worries" to the Lord?
I can't believe I've known you for 2 yrs and just today I read THIS particular blog post. Here I was, knowing and loving you for the entire time we served together in Blytheville and I had no idea what you went through just to GET there. I guess you can look back on those days and say, "God, You truly knew what You were doing when you did what You did." Everything worked out. God knew I needed you...and there you were. No house to sell before moving to Arkansas, no strings holding you to Florida (except, of course, your parents), nothing keeping you from serving alongside a woman who desperately needed a friend to validate what she did in ministry...for the very first time. I needed a friend. I needed YOU. It is no accident the way things happened for you and how much time transpired between "the call", your wedding, and your move. It was all perfectly orchestrated to coincide with my desperate need for a friend. I love you more than you could ever know...or I could ever express to you. I praise our wonderful God who saw my need and met it with you. You will never understand how much you meant to me then, and how much you still mean to me now. I find it strange how God moved you AWAY from Florida only to move me TO Florida. Weird, right? I guess we will find out the 'WHYS' later on.
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Jenn
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